Attempting to Hobby Myself

Lately, I've been trying to find things to do for myself that I enjoy.   I realized one day recently that I don't have things that I "do" that I enjoy for myself.  I plan my days based on my two adorable children. I make plans to go to farms, playgrounds, friends' houses.  I plan the day around meals and naps and preschool.

I enjoy all the pieces of my SAHM "job".  I love caring for my children.  I love preparing the meals for everyone in the family.  I love that I am the "CEO" of the house and take care of everything financially.  I love, as Pete puts it, I'm the "social coordinator" of our life.  I love caring for our house and knowing that I'm the one taking care of everyone.  This is my absolute dream job and I am forever and ever grateful that my husband works his butt off so I can do this.  I'm so lucky to be able to do this that I feel bad even saying that I want more in my life.

By more I mean this: I want to knit and crochet and learn to use a sewing machine.  I want to become a better photographer/photo editor.  I daydream of being crafty like this.  I want an area of my house that is for me to work on something that I will be proud of.

I think one of the reasons I love blogging so much is because it's something I look forward to doing.  I'm proud of what I write.  I am happy to share with people out there that are blog readers (you're out there, right?)  I love thinking about something that I am going to "do" - as in - I look forward to sitting down and writing about what I've been thinking about what I wanted to write.  How's that for a confusing statement!!?  The long and short of it is that I'm the type of person that loves having something to look forward to.  I love having something that gets me excited.

So...where does that leave me?  Mostly daydreaming still...but instead of just wishing and hoping I've vowed to light a little fire under my crafty side.  I have no crafty talents as of yet but am begging my inner creative crafter to come up.  I spent the afternoon yesterday watching youtube video after youtube video on how to crochet.  By the time Gracie woke up from her nap I had managed to teach myself how to do a slip knot, single crochet and double crochet, turn and add lines.  I was proud to show my hard working hubby three double crochet lines when he got home last night!  I crack myself up that I think I can make a hat today after my learning yesterday.  You never know - maybe I'll be really good at it and start my own little hat business on etsy...stay tuned - but don't hold your breath!